Hope

Where do you find hope?

Life is filled with so many ups and downs that somewhere in the middle of the crazy ride we find something to keep us going--we find hope.

We find comfort in hope

Hope is that little feeling that picks us up when we're down. The hope of a simple possibility empowers us to keep moving.

Infertility has given me a new perspective of hope.

That little feeling of hope is what makes it all worth it.

We find hope in having competent and specialized doctors and nurses.

We find hope in that there may be a miracle and that maybe it will happen.

Hope is a funny. We must believe in hope, but not count on it.

For two and a half years I've held on to the hope of having a child.

A full year, I fully trusted and invested in hope. I put all my eggs in one basket with hope.

Doing so left me farther down than I ever could imagine. I made hope my expectations, instead of a  feeling that things turn out for the best.

The second year of infertility, I believed in hope but didn't expect or rely on hope.

I find comfort in believing, but didn't get too caught up with expecting things would turn out how I wanted them to with our infertility journey.

Great thinks happen when you hope something will happen, but don't expect them to because of hope. It's a fine line, I know, but it's a line that must me set.

Infertility is a continuous cycle of ups and downs, but we continue with the hope that the best will happen. 

I continue to believe in hope, but am detached from being fully invested when it comes to hope and infertility.

I have to be.

Friendship, Kids, & Living Childless

Living childless has it's ups and downs.

The hardest part: friends with kids.

We adjust our lives to work around their schedules and babysitter availability.

We go to birthday parties.

We buy birthday presents and Christmas presents.

We adjust our lives to be part of theirs and their children's.

It's not always reciprocated. 

Yes, our lives are much different, but does that mean that we're too different to adjust?

Often times people say, "You won't understand until you have kids of your own."

That may very well be true, but that's no fault of my own.

We've spent so much of our lives sad, longing for kids of our own.

We've spent so much financially and emotionally on having kids that I don't think it's fair.

We're taking a break from the heartache of infertility and celebrating what we have.

And what we have is a life without kids.

Why shouldn't we celebrate the life we have? 

Yes, we would love kids but that's not an option right now.

Is it too much to ask that friends be willing to adjust into our lives as well?

We spend a lot of time celebrating with our friends with kids, why not have them celebrate with us?

I'm not asking people drop everything and meet our every request, but we're busy too.

I'm working two jobs (trying to start a third) and still have time to ask how little Suzy is doing, so isn't it common curtsey to ask how we are as well?

While life with and without children is very different, I think we all need to be willing to adjust.

High{5} for Friday

 High Five for Friday is a weekly post about your five favorite things recently. it's a chance to stop and reflect on the things that you've enjoyed over the past week, which is something we should all do.

1.Yogi Tahitian Vanilla Hazelnut tea. I'm not really a tea fan, but this stuff is delicious.

Not only does it taste great, but the little inspiration and saying in the tea bag lifts you up too.

2. Headbands. I'm working on headbands and finally made some packaging for them. Just Love 'em! They'll be up on my etsy site soon! 

 3.talenti gelato sea salt caramel gelato. If heaven and happiness were in ice cream form, this would be it in my book. It's SO amazing. Worth every single penny!

4. Ninja turtle hats. So fun. So simple. So soft! Available at sweetcheekssd.etsy.com

5. A simple reminder--YOU are ENOUGH!  

{Trying to} Focus on the Positive

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2013 was a rough year at my household. Looking back on all the negative, I focused too much on it?

Why is that? I know I'm not alone in struggling with this.

Personally, I think my nature everyone is good. I believe we're all born into the world good.

Maybe that's why we focus on the negative because the negative is the part that's out of the norm.

Think about it. When we see the news the majority of it is about negative things out there. The positive stories are deemed human interest stories or fluff pieces. The newspaper (at least in my small town) has a section in the paper listing every police report/violation.

It's because those things are out of the norm; they go against our innate nature. And that's the good part.

There's SO much positivity and good out there that it's not considered hard-hitting news.

That's the great part.

 

In 2014 I'm going to focus on the positive rather than the negative.