Infertility & The Nevers

It was my 10 year reunion this weekend. I opted not to go. Showing up with my husband of 3.5 years would draw the dreaded question from strangers: when are you going to have kids?

As innocent of a question that I know it is, someone going through infertility feels that question hit like a hammer. It's a reminder of the struggle, a reminder of the sad.
 I opted out of going for that reason...and because it was July 5th and we had lake plans for the 4th.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the n-word: NEVER.
Coming to terms with knowing that medically you'll NEVER be able to have kids by natural means is hard to swallow. You go through the stages of grief alone because the world keeps going on without you. I'm almost back on track with the real world, or I've distracted myself enough to go on with the world. Yet, the thought of what if we NEVER have kids has been circling my brain lately. It's something I don't know how to deal with; I get sad and angry and think about how unfair it is. With all infertility options--fertility treatments, foster care, adoption--there are NEVER any guarantees.

The only guarantee comes in the form of high costs and bills.

It makes me feel as if I am and will be "less than" for not being a part of the moms club.

Vow Vox Box Review

 

Oh how I love influenster and vox box! Nothing is better than receiving a courtesy gift to try and review form a normal person's perspective. #VowVoxBox came with all the goodies any bride, bridesmaid, or wedding guest (me) needs.


The Olay Regenerist Tone Perfect Cream is amazing. I'm not going to lie; the first time I used it I had a slight minor breakout. My skin was so used to the cheap face lotion that it didn't know what to do with something good for it. After a few days, it went back to normal and I noticed small changes in my skin: my dark spots were lightening up a bit and smoothing out. The cream is great and I'm excited to see how a few more weeks of it does. Note: a little goes a long way. If you use too much (like I did the first time), it will be greasy. I love Olay so I might be a bit biased, but it makes me my #BestBeautiful.

The EcoTools Pure Complexion Facial Sponge is great if you love a good scrub. I usually use a the Olay Pro-X cleansing system, so I'm used to a good scrub. The EcoTool sponge was hard, but quickly softens once water hits it. It gently exfoliates. Once the sponge dries it shrinks a lot. I think it's a great product, but from a sustainability stand point and product life, I'm going to stick with the Olay Pro-X cleansing system.  


Oh, Pure Silk Shave Cream is great. I forgot how great it is. It's like a paint by number version of shaving your legs. You put it on and shave it all off. LOL. I usually use the Schick intuition with the soap around the blade. Pure Silk really leaves your legs soft and hydrated. Plus, the scent it SO great.


Tide-to-go...I mean who doesn't need this! I've always been a big fan as I'm a spiller. Words like a charm every time!


The Sally Hansen Complete Salon Manicure was nice. I loved the barracuda color. It was the right amount of light color to be able to wear with everything. It went on smooth, with little effort. It did stay tacky for a long time. Yet, if I were to use a regular polish, I would have to do multiple coats, so the dry time is likely the same. 


Riley & Grey looked like a great company and idea, but I'm not sold. The price seemed pretty high when there are so many other options for a wedding website out there for free. I liked the ideas and photos they offered and think they could do awesome website design...just not for a one time event like a wedding.